Thought Flow

I have a feeling that life is going to be good for right now but may not stay that way. I've been through a lot in the last few years. Many HAPPY moments that stand out and make me smile along with some very LOW moments that when I think about it I want to cry. I recently was writing about the last few weeks of my life and stated that I wish I could cry all of the tears right now so that in the future when I really should be crying I wouldn't be so everyone that thinks I'm strong will continue to see me as such and I will feel strong as a result. Why do I feel such a pressure to be the person that people look to only in times of need?

I know the experiences I have been going through cannot be pinpointed on any one thing or reason as to why, and I'll be damned if I allow any of it to stop allowing me to love and be loved. I only wish it would not be happening to those that I love. I need to figure out how to accept that life is life regardless of prayers, wishes, hopes and dreams. It can be cruel and beautiful at the same time and I am always learning to appreciate what is around me. I'll focus on finding a balance within myself that will get me to where I am going wherever that may be.

I love you mom and hope you know that despite our different opinions at

times that I will continue to support, love and care for you!

Summer is Fading Quickly

I loathe snow and therefore wintertime.

I don't like driving in it, walking around in it or putting on layers.

It is just a nusiance that I think I will move away from one of these years.

Instead of complaining more- Below are some of the great memories from this summer

and I hope that next summer comes quickly!

I was able to go to New Hampshire, New York and Boston twice this summer, I also went to San Diego this past spring and have posted one picture from the Telluride Bluegrass Festival in '08.

Bunker Hill with Neesha and Kealy, Strawberry Fields in Central Park


San Diego, CA

Perkins Cove, ME and Telluride, CO